wow, have i abandoned this blog. i have been dying to update. but exams are such a pain. when i’m not studying, i just want to laze around and do nothing. they all say the 2nd semester of 3rd year is the hardest, and now, i finally realize why. 5 papers really drain the crap out of you. i’m only done with two, but i don’t seem to have anymore drive or will power to sit my stubborn butt down and study. to top it off, my seniors just finished their final paper today. they are DOCTORS now!!! speaking of which, congratulations, my beloved seniors! (:
anyway, back to the exam topic. i realize that my inspiration for song writing usually creeps up at the height of my exam stress. the last song i composed was when i was in the midst of studying for my anatomy exam one and a half years ago. and the previous was when i was attempting to study for my chemistry exam.
this time, after so long, i managed to finish a song which was half composed. two days before my therapy exam. ahaha. it was when i just couldn’t read anymore, i took the guitar, sat in the balcony and started scribbling lyrics on my exam notes! lol. within minutes i was done. and tadaaa, a really emo song.
the song’s about a relationship that was wrong from the start. a relationship that wasn’t meant to last. a relationship that had to end. it’s about how it’s never easy doing the right thing but in the end, we’ve gotta learn to say goodbye.
i really hope to record this song someday (all my other songs too for that matter). although, the tune is a pretty depressing tune, if you ask me. well coz i am depressed (to a certain extent). i think i might have made my dad teared a little when i played it for him. coz both my mom and him, they know my pain, and they feel it too. i am after all their baby girl (: while i’m at this, i just want to say, thank you dad and mom for being there for me when i need you guys most. and for being so ready to sacrifice for me just to make me smile. i love you all, from the bottom of my heart.
oh by the way, the title of my new song would me “learn to say goodbye”. i’m planning to post and password protect my lyrics. so those who are interested in reading my dark brooding emotional song, you may ask for the password. however, please don’t copy and paste them anywhere else, aite? (:
toodles! and all the best to those who are still having exams!
taken from tumblr
finding myself. 