things that make no sense

wow, have i abandoned this blog. i have been dying to update. but exams are such a pain. when i’m not studying, i just want to laze around and do nothing. they all say the 2nd semester of 3rd year is the hardest, and now, i finally realize why. 5 papers really drain the crap out of you. i’m only done with two, but i don’t seem to have anymore drive or will power to sit my stubborn butt down and study. to top it off, my seniors just finished their final paper today. they are DOCTORS now!!! speaking of which, congratulations, my beloved seniors! (:

anyway, back to the exam topic. i realize that my inspiration for song writing usually creeps up at the height of my exam stress. the last song i composed was when i was in the midst of studying for my anatomy exam one and a half years ago. and the previous was when i was attempting to study for my chemistry exam.

this time, after so long, i managed to finish a song which was half composed. two days before my therapy exam. ahaha. it was when i just couldn’t read anymore, i took the guitar, sat in the balcony and started scribbling lyrics on my exam notes! lol. within minutes i was done. and tadaaa, a really emo song.

the song’s about a relationship that was wrong from the start. a relationship that wasn’t meant to last. a relationship that had to end. it’s about how it’s never easy doing the right thing but in the end, we’ve gotta learn to say goodbye.

i really hope to record this song someday (all my other songs too for that matter). although, the tune is a pretty depressing tune, if you ask me. well coz i am depressed (to a certain extent). i think i might have made my dad teared a little when i played it for him. coz both my mom and him, they know my pain, and they feel it too. i am after all their baby girl (: while i’m at this, i just want to say, thank you dad and mom for being there for me when i need you guys most. and for being so ready to sacrifice for me just to make me smile. i love you all, from the bottom of my heart.

oh by the way, the title of my new song would me “learn to say goodbye”. i’m planning to post and password protect my lyrics. so those who are interested in reading my dark brooding emotional song, you may ask for the password. however, please don’t copy and paste them anywhere else, aite? (:

toodles! and all the best to those who are still having exams!

taken from tumblr

full of poo

here goes a random post. sorry if it lacks continuity and sounds jumpy. my thoughts are scattered.

for those of you who don’t know, i’m about to sit for an exam. 3rd year, 1st semester exam. the subjects? Philosophy on the 15th, Russian Language on the 20th and last but not least, something more relevant to medicine, Microbiology on the 25th.

and then i’m flying back home to celebrate CNY! finally. after so many years. gosh i’m gonna eat so much. hehehe.

i hope daddy remembers the promise he made about letting me bring his DSLR back with me to Russia. and i hope i get a new lappie this winter holidays. my lappie is DYING. it’s freaking sloooowwww. the battery is long dead so it’s no longer portable, which defeats the purpose of having a laptop. also, it hangs. a lot! and every once in a while, it does this screen accelerating thing which makes me wanna smash it. i took a video of it to upload. but i think the format isn’t compatible. i can’t seem to upload it. :S

hmm, i feel like drinking lemon tea now. but i ran out of lemon. anyone kind enough to spare me a slice or two?

oh i bought a new body wash. palmolive thermal spa. i got bored of the same old dove one i use. i thought of pampering myself and buying this really sweet smelling body wash. it costs a whopping 325 rubles/ rm 33 approximately. but then again, what have i done to deserve such pampering? sigh. so yea. palmolive it was. i’ve used this before, when i was in pre-med. the scent brings back sad memories. i shan’t say what. 😦

anyway, i’ve gotta bath and then start studying Philosophy. yuck! seriously, it is so redundant, so irrelevant, so freaking full of poo. gahh! somebody save meee (in my mind i’m singing the song now. you know the song?) gosh i sound crazy.

all the best in your exams people. i pray you all are more focused and collected than i am. woooozahhhhh!

toodles!